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Who is up for such a task, as carrying the Cross of Christ?

Who is up for such a task as carrying the Cross of Christ?

 If we are fully in Christ, and lead fully by His Spirit, and word speaking, and walking in His truth, all of who we are, and what we are speaking, spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of Him. God uses our senses throughout His word of truth as a way of explaining how He receives us and the way we receive Him through His Spirit.
Those who love Him, the knowledge of Him is like a fragrance of life, those who don’t love Him above all, his knowledge is like a fragrance of death because they will have to give up something or someone they love more than him. 

People will “see”, and “smell” His light of life glowing within a person, or they will “see” or “smell” death. It does not matter where He has placed them through His Spirit, all will be exposed because who He is within that person.

It can be in the darkest place, or in the brightest of places, a child of God will be spreading the knowledge of who He is through their words and deeds. He will always be lifted in every child that loves Him, and He will always be lifted in others through them. 

God will always lead His children that are carrying His Cross in triumphal procession because they are spreading the knowledge of Christ. They will always be a pleasing aroma to Him. They will remain following Him by all He gives them from within, regardless how others respond to His presence, and message.
2 Corinthians 11:14 But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of him. For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved, and those who are perishing. To the one are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life. And who is equal to such a task? Unlike so many, we do not peddle the world of God for profit. On the contrary, in Christ we speak before God with sincerity, like man sent from God.
To God, His true children are the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. His truth within them will always remain the same, but people will respond to Him differently. All will be exposed by how each person responds to His truth.
To one, who do not love Him above all others and things, they will respond to His message as a fragrance of death. These people can be false apostles masquerading as apostles of Christ. It can also be proven through any unbeliever. The person who smells death, due to their lack of love for Him, will respond to the anointed child of God with, pride, self-piety, bitterness, resentment, mocking, and contempt.
To the other, who truly loves Him, they will respond to His message as a fragrance of life. They will respond with His humility toward His Father as a child being taught by His Father through His Spirit, His joy, His gentleness, His understanding, and love, the fruit of His Spirit will be lifting them up giving them life through the message, not death.
Jesus shares this truth with a religious man, a high member of the ruling council of the Pharisee, named Nicodemus.  He came to visit Jesus in the “dark”, because he was scared to visit Jesus in the “day light.” He feared losing his position, reputation, and being ridiculed by the other Pharisees. 

Nicodemus had seen and heard how the other Pharisees ridiculed Jesus, and his disciples in their council meetings, and he did not want to experience what Jesus and the other disciples of Christ were experiencing. Jesus tells Nicodemus a person must be reborn through His Spirit of truth to enter the Kingdom of God, and He is the verdict that has come into the world to prove those that do live through His Spirit of light,  and those that don’t, remain in darkness.
John 3:19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth come into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God.
Some people will love darkness, the lie, more than His light of truth, and they will not come into His light of truth in fear of their evil deeds being exposed, but those who love His truth will come into His light and not be afraid of exposing the lie, and it will be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God. 

Nicodemus and the other Pharisees liked people lifting them up, praising them, boasting about them, but they did not live to please God, and did not live humbly for God so He could exalt them. They were not any different than the world or the Roman government, they liked exalting themselves, and they used everything, every occasion, and people to exalt themselves. A humble child of God will always live for God, in all occasions, to exalt them not people. Just like Jesus did not live for people to exalt Him, He lived for His Father to exalt Him, and we will too, if He is in us.
1 Peter 5:6 Humble yourselves therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that He may exalt you.
Evil in God’s sight reveals many spirits a natural man will never be aware of, and many can be deceived thinking they are rightly related to God, but they may be idolizing something above Him that makes them feel good. Today there are many who love people, life, and all things around them, but they, like Nicodemus, become very religious, and have a  deep passion in pleasing God, but it is through their own ideas and understanding of who God was and is. 

Nicodemus wanted to learn about Jesus, but he had no true love for God, and His understanding of who He was in His heart. Nicodemus had earthly things on His mind above Heavenly things. He let fear take over, fear of losing His standing in the community, fear of losing his own value of his accomplishments, and fear of losing his own understanding of who God was. Nicodemus was much like Paul, being twisted by His religious views, rules, traditions, and was being deceived until He heard the truth from Jesus.
John 3:11 I tell you the truth, we speak of what we know, and we testify to what we have seen, but still you people do not accept our testimony.
V 14 Just as Moses lifted up the snake in the desert, so the Son of Man must be lifted up, that everyone who believes in him may have eternal life.
We do not know what happened to Nicodemus after Jesus was resurrected, perhaps He was resurrected by our Father through His power and grace working in Nicodemus as He worked in Paul, and all the disciples and followers of Jesus the same way He works in and through us.

I think because Nicodemus was curious enough to seek him out in secret before his crucifixion, when Jesus was crucified, the earth shook, and the religious curtain was torn, the heart of Nicodemus was open enough to let His faith in and fear out! We do know what happened to Paul when He saw the light of Jesus after Jesus resurrected to Heaven. 

The light of Jesus, His grace within had a huge effect on Him, and Paul gave all of himself to Jesus as God’s Holy Son and His Heavenly Father through all God had given Paul through His Spirit of truth, just as He does in and through us today, we too can be like Paul and give all when we first see Jesus, and everyday after, for Him to make the choices in life for us through His Spirit of truth. 
If you find yourself responding to God’s truth with fear of any kind, resentment, mocking, contempt, self-piety, pride in your own righteousness, repent immediately and face His truth, and presence that gives you new birth, and life. His mercy and His forgiveness will be like a fountain pouring over you with a new heart lifting you up to only wanting to please Him above all others and things in this world.
Let His truth transform us, mold us, and lift us higher than we are today, higher than our own righteousness, and higher than our own guilt and shame. This task of carrying our Cross is a miracle that only can be done through the power and grace of God. You can begin pouring out His light of truth without fear as a humble devoted child wanting to be taught by a devoted Father. 

He will exalt you beyond your own imagination that takes you beyond this world into His Kingdom. Those who are perishing or those who are being saved will not affect your relationship with Him, but through each response He will reveal who we are. Who is up for such a task as carrying His Cross? Those who love Him above all!

Are you a watchman, or a watchwoman for God?

Are you a watchman or a watchwoman for God?

Proverbs 8:34 Blessed is the man who listens to me, watching daily at my doors, waiting at my doorway.
A watchman, or a watchwoman is someone in the city or a community that would be designated by the city or community to warn the unrighteous, guard the righteous from the unrighteous, and their influence, or defend the righteous any means that were necessary. They would stand at the doors of the houses, stand at the doors of their work places, stand at the door of their synagogues, and stand at the doors of their communities, and countries.

A "watch person" for God  is much like a shepherd watching over their sheep in the parables of God.  A "shepherd" for God has to be His "sheep" in order to become His "shepherd" or "watch person".

1 Peter 5:1 To the elders among you, I appeal as a fellow elder, a witness of Christ's sufferings and one who also will share in the glory to be revealed. Be shepherds of God's flock that is under your care, serving as overseers-not because you must, but because you are willing, as God wants you to be; not lording it over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock.

Many look at this scripture and automatically think Peter is talking about mature in age elderly people. Truly Peter is talking to young and elderly in age. Each age group in Christ can willingly be a witness, shepherd, watchperson for Him, and experience His sufferings, which was persecution. 

A school age child can suffer persecution because they are being examples of Christ in word and deed just as much as some one older in age. They also are humble, and not hoarding their salvation over their peers, as the elderly in age are humble and do not hoard their position over those who are younger. Each speaking His truth through the words He gives and walking out His truth is a part of every person in Christ. Everyone He has appointed as His witness through Christ can be His shepherd,  watchman or watchwoman if they are hold enough to be accountable.
All throughout the Bible God would appoint watchmen, shepherds for His cities or "flock." Each of us in Christ have been given a flock to watch over. The young and the old in age were included among his prophets, kings, and disciples. In the Old Testament God would appoint judges, kings, prophets, watchmen and watchwomen that were appointed by the king, or God to stand guard against the unrighteous. 

They would watch from the gates, high towers, and walk among the people inside the gate and outside checking on their farms and vineyards. They would have meetings with the king and report any danger in the land or the city. The "watch person" would warn the unrighteous, protect the righteous, and if they had too, they would physically remove the unrighteous from the city, take them to court to face the judges, or kill them if it came to that to protect their righteous people in their cities. Many wars broke out, and divided kingdoms emerged. These wars are still going on today between the righteous, and the unrighteous in so many ways.

Through the History of the Old Testament, the kings, the prophets, judges, and the watchmen and watchwomen that did not do their jobs as God instructed, would quickly fall into the life of the unrighteous, and the unrighteous would take over their righteous cities, or bring back their prisoners to their land. The unrighteous Babylon King taking over Israel was God's punishment for His people because of their rebellious acts, idolatry, and their lack of only worshiping Him above all people and things. He had to punish the unrighteous to save the righteous, or the prophecy of Jesus and the Cross would not have been fulfilled.
Ezekiel was a prophet chosen by God to be a watchman, or shepherd for his flock, Israel, when they were captured by Babylonians, due to all the sins they committed, and they had to live in a country that was led by people that did not believe in their God. These are the words God spoke to Ezekiel, and it also is the words He speaks to us as His chosen children through His Son Jesus Christ, living in a fallen world, we are to remain righteous in Him, and still warn others through these same words He gives us, as God did through Jesus when our Father sent Him and fulfilled His first coming to save the world, Jews first then the Gentiles, and today He still is, in and through us. 
Ezekiel 3:17 Son of man, I have made you a watchman for the house of Israel; so hear the word I speak and give them warning from me. When I say to a wicked man, “You will surely die, and you do not warn him or speak out to dissuade him from his evil ways in order to save his life, that wicked man will die for his sin, and I will hold you accountable for his blood. But if you do warn the wicked man and he does not turn from his wickedness or from his evil ways, he will die for his sin; but you will have saved yourself.
If you have surrendered all to God through the Cross, and He has revealed to you through His Spirit a person you know that does wicked acts, a person that has other idols above Him, double-minded, or is lukewarm “spiritually”, and you do not warn them by speaking the words He gives you, their blood is on your hands, just as the blood of the wicked, idolatry, lukewarm person would have been on Ezekiel’s hands.
If you are a child of God, His witness, and can’t hear the words He gives you then your eyes are off Him, and on the people, or the circumstances. You have more sympathy for that person, or more fear of the circumstances above pleasing Him, and what He can give you, and that person. If you do hear His words He is speaking to you to give to that unrighteous person, and you ignore Him, He will hold you accountable for their blood, and it does not matter who they are, he will old you accountable, because He is trying to save them through you. These are His words not mine, and it is up to all of us to take heed to them as He takes hold of us.
Through Christ He has chosen all of us who are in Him to speak the words He gives us, that is dwelling in us through the Spirit of truth, if He is in us, His words will be there at the right time, and be spoken the right way, without fear, calmly, sternly, bubbling up, and pouring out of us with His authority. This does not mean we will be perfect all the time, but it also means we can be if we remain in the light as He is in the light. 

He only knows what we are today, and what we will be tomorrow. His will is for to stay in the light as He is in the light, but if we do not we will repent, ask for forgiveness and begin where we left off. He will give us enough grace to overcome our mistakes, and let us know when we make them. He will change us daily as we walk in Him daily. The process and length of time it takes a person to be spiritually mature in Him is measured by your willingness to please Him through a devoted relationship, and not the worlds way, or man's way, but His way. He has already done all He needs to do for us, now it is up to us to receive all He has done, and put Him before us through His life giving Spirit.

1 John 1:7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his son, purifies us from all sin.

Sometimes our words may appear to hard, or too soft, but through Him it will always be as He intends it to be, because of the blessing His peace and grace we receive from Him no one can touch. The more of our natural flesh we give to Him the more He will come through. He will always prick our hearts when we are not rightly related to Him because we are His children He is molding and shaping to do His will on this earth. Beware, do not deceive yourself by letting your feelings or emotions lift you up, or bring you down, you will always grow tried and weary if you are living through your natural emotions.

1 John 1:2 My dear children, I write this to yo so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have one who speaks to the Father in our defense-Jesus Christ, the Righteous One. He is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for ours but also for the sins of the whole world. (Or He is the one who turns aside God's wrath, taking away our sins, and not only ours but also the whole world.)
He is much greater than our natural feelings and emotions. His words will not be sugar coated, nor will they taste like vinegar. They will be like salt is to food, igniting out the right flavors, and a beautiful aroma to God, that brings out all the right emotions of his temperament, to the right people at the right time. His truth will always bring Godly sorrow no matter how sincere a person is, and we will be grateful for Him breaking our hearts.
2 Corinthians 2:15-17 For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. To the one we are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life, and who is equal to such a task? Unlike so many, we do not peddle the word of God for profit. On the contrary, in Christ we speak before God with sincerity, like men sent from God.
Our Father exposed what was hidden in the world through His Son for His purpose, and through Him He will expose what is hidden in ourselves, and through us for others for His purpose. Jesus spoke to all the people, with the right temperament for each one, at the right time, and through Him we will too. If we are fixing our eyes on Jesus He will give us the right words and the right temperament every time, and we will never grow weary or lose heart, speaking, praying, and walking in and through His Spirit for our Father and His Son sake for their Kingdom building, not because we must, but because we are willing through His given Spirit to do His will.
Hebrews 12:2 We are fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the Cross, scorning its shame and sat down at the right hand of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so you will not grow weary and loose heart.

His He tugging on your heart to be His witness, shepherd, or "watchperson"? Is He calling you to warn the wicked, the people who have lost their first love for Him, the idolater, the lukewarm, the double-minded,and the people who do not walk and talk through His Spirit and word? If you have fully surrendered wholeheartedly to Christ, then He is calling you to be sent, has He was sent. What is your answer to His call? Who, or what is most important to you?

Will you be held accountable for the blood of others because you did not speak, or will you save yourself, and possibly someone else if you do? Through the fullness of Christ, we are all His witnesses, shepherds, watchmen, or watchwomen for our Father doing His will! Are you listening to Him, watching daily at his doors he has given you, speaking His words, and waiting at his doorways? If you are, then you are being blessed by Him within, and in many ways!

Where, O death, is your sting?

Where, O death, is your sting?
It has been swallowed up by our one true King! I hear many “Christians” say these words, and I see some proving them, and living them out. He has proven these words in my life since He was revealed in my soul over ten years ago. I know He wants to prove these words to all His children in their own lives.
Many “Christians” are still swallowed up by fear of death, and are swallowed up  by many emotions concerning death. Death is the strongest circumstance, and proof He lives in a person.  Many “Christians” are still proving they are no different than the world because of how they respond to it. The sting of death is still real for them and no victory over it has been proven in their lives.
When someone leaves this earth, because I am focused on Him, my Father always takes me back to my Savior’s death, before His spirit and soul first left His body. How He must have felt over the death of His Son, His suffering, pain, and agony we will never understand. Not because of the crucifixion, many were crucified, but because of all the weight of our sins that disfigured him so much he did not look human. Movies, and words cannot describe what the Son and Father went through, nor will we ever understand through our human understanding. 
I can’t imagine how they hurt watching all transpire from the plans the Father and Son had made before the creation of the world, and His purpose for it. Although he suffered, it was for His purpose and plan in making a Kingdom and people of His very own, and it was worth all the suffering he suffered for a little while, no matter how great, because He knew it was going to save souls without sin, and had a full heart for Him; His Eternal son's and daughters, His Holy Kingdom.
He gave His Son all He needed to face death because He knew where He was going, and the purpose for it. Today those who know Him, believe, and experience within themselves, and live out His words “To live is Christ and to die is gain, and they know being in His presence is better by far then living on this earth. 

Philippians 1:21 For to me, (Paul) to live is Christ, and to die is gain.

24 I desire to depart with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 

We who truly know Him, as Paul did through His Spirit, see death through His eyes, His purpose for it, and we hope with the Hope of Christ, it will awaken Him in others through our death so they can be saved as others were saved through His. We are sent to live and die as He was sent to live and die, through His presence. As His death saved many souls, may all death through His children draw people to Him so their souls can be saved.
There is no denying it is hard for a child of God to see any human suffer pain, no matter what they have done, or the life they have lived. You have no  love of God in you if you have no compassion, or forgiveness if you do not suffer when anyone is in pain. I know it was hard for my Father to see His Son die as He did, but He willed it, and He was pleased to accomplish it because of what would transpire through His finished work in and through His Son coming to an end on the Cross.
Isaiah 53:10 Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt made his soul, and offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days and the pleasure of the LORD shall prosper in his hand.
He knew the outcome and the purpose for it, and through Him He gives us that same will and pleasure in what we need through His presence when we see a loved one, or when our time comes to suffer our own death when we leave this earth. We know the outcome just as He knew the outcome, because of what He gives us of Himself. He gives us a heart full of pleasure, deep joy and love no one can take away, and His purpose, and plan for it! 

Those who know Him know there is a purpose for our physical death, we might not understand all of it, but we know it is given to us to prove His victory over it, and it does not sting us as it did before we knew Him. He is pleased when we prove His presence is real in us, as He was pleased to prove His presence in His Son at his physical death. He has changed us in how we respond and react to it because of all He gives us of himself through it.
Today there are over 6000 bodies, souls and spirits an hour leaving this earth. Since there is more people on the earth, there are more leaving this earth. There are 15,000 bodies, spirits and souls born on this earth every hour.

There is many going through different circumstances that are involved with a soul, and spirit passing from this earth to Heaven; no one is alone having to face the death of a body from this earth, many are prayed for, and He always answers.

I know the more I have faced it through His presence the more I learn of His power and grace through the circumstance. I do not learn from the circumstance but learn from Him through it. I have faced many leaving this earth in the past 10 years, more than I could have ever imagined, due to what He wanted to teach me through all of them. 

There is many who die today from all kinds of diseases, and many die instantly in many ways. We are not alone on this earth going through whatever we are going through, or whenever we face it personally ourselves. We do, or can know someone they may not know. 

The One that takes them past the sting of it, and gives them victory over it! He loves to prove it, and He wants to prove it in all those who have received Him. He will always prove His promises, purpose and plans through His Son on the Cross. He is our Father God, Lord and Savior, His Son,Jesus Christ, that lives now in us through His Spirit!

Do you know Him this way, has He proven in you there is no sting in death, only victory?
Oh death, O death where is your sting, it has been overcome by the King of all Kings!

Is your mind and heart being tossed back and forth like the waves?

Is your mind and heart being tossed
 back and forth like the waves?

James 1:6 But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.   
There are all kinds of “voices” that give us doubts in who we are, and who the Father, Son and Holy Spirit is. The voices that can give us doubts come from our own mind, from someone else, our sins, and from our circumstances we face daily. Satan will use all the voices that is not of God to keep our doubt alive and working until we are fully pulled away from God, or wavering from one day to the next not truly having confidence in who we are, and who He is. 

Our hearts and mind can become like the waves being tossed back and forth by the wind, and no true peace will our souls experience because we are not receiving God’s true voice His Spirit and Word can only give us.
The only voice we all need to heed is God’s and His alone that we can hear only through the Son, by way of His Spirit. He gives us the power within ourselves to silence all other voices, and they have no power over us! When we do ask, we must believe Him and His Words He gives us, not doubt what He is giving us, and who He is for us; our Savior, Lord and Father. He died so we could have a relationship with Him above all other voices in the world. He is the only true voice; all other voices, including our own is a lie.
We do not want to be only a hearer of His words and voice, we will be deceiving ourselves if we only go to Him to hear what He says and do not apply His teachings and instructions  to our daily lives. We should live out what He says in our mind, body and heart, and His faith, hope and love will always guard our mind, body and heart everyday until He calls us home. If we hear His voice and do not do what He says we are like someone that looks in the mirror, walks away, and forgets what he looks like. We are only deceiving ourselves if we go to Him to only hear what He says.
James 1:22 Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the world but does not do what It says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 
If you are experiencing doubt what He is giving you is true, and your mind, and heart feels like it is being tossed back and forth like the waves? Stop! Listen to God through His word of truth, and let Him bring you to shore, place you on His Rock, so your mind, and heart cannot be shaken. 

He will give you your confidence, fearlessness, boldness from all He gives you of Himself, and through all He gives you in this life to prove His word, and promises is true. Do not listen to all the other voices His Spirit and Word do not proclaim. His peace will fully live in your heart everyday as you surrender daily all other voices that are not Him more and more. Anyone, any where, can begin now living out His truth He can only pour in!


"Therefore I have hope", a new book interview

Good day to all my readers! Hope all is well with your soul, and if you are heavy burdened in any way we all know who to turn to for guidance and deliverance. May all of us have His knowledge given to us that reveals our soul only rest in Him.
Today I am interviewing a new Christian writer name John R.Haeffele. He has an amazing testimony our Heavenly Father has given Him to proclaim. Our Heavenly Father went beyond giving Him the words to tell, He gave Him the gift of writing, and John’s testimony has become his first book, a memoir called, Therefore I have hope. 

John also has a Facebook site, The prodigal one, and blog website called That is full of God's messages He has given to John that may lead you to the Cross.

John, can you give us a summary of your journey that lead you to our Heavenly Father.
I had been a Christian most of my life. Trouble started when I began living half in the world and the other half in the Word. The half in the world was an open invitation for the devil to come in. Sin has consequences. My sin led to a prison sentence. It was sitting in a 6 X 10 cell when I decided to fully devote my life to God.
Vicki’s response: That truly is a place where one can find Him, when they are alone, all is lost to them, they have no power to change the situation, and His voice is the only one they want, and needs to be heard desperately. Your book reveals how desperate you had become, and I think that is a very important part of the story. He still will save you no matter how low one may think they are. At the same time, I hope many realize one does not need to become that desperate to be desperate enough to call out to Him or hear His voice.
What made you aware that your writing was a gift from God to be used for His purpose, and not a gift to use for your own purpose?
I was a “D” student in English. I never enjoyed reading or writing. The only book I ever read was the Bible. Now I love reading and writing my weekly blog, and messages for speaking engagements. John 3:21 Jesus says, “But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God." Anyone who knew me in my prior life would agree the only way I have accomplished what I have accomplished is by the hand of God. Whatever I do, I do all for the glory of God.
Vicki’s response: Amen, John. I totally understand what you mean being transformed into a workman, or student approved by God, verses, what you were before you knew Him. A person not having any comprehension of what they were reading or any desire to learn about writing, then comprehend everything they read, and a huge desire to learn all there is about writing. They learn it all from the only one that can give it to them personally or through another for His purpose and plan. That is when a person realizes all they have been given is given by Him, and all they have belongs to Him to use for His purpose.
Why do you believe God desires this book, Therefore I have Hope, to be written?
I believe God desired this story to be written to glorify Him, and give the readers a message of hope. For many, prison can be a hopeless situation. Along with their hope many lose their families. My family, and I were separated for 25 months. I hurt them tremendously, but they stayed by my side. It would have been easy for them to walk away. My family, and my God proved that love never fails. I have a story to tell the world about who God is and what He has done in our lives.
Do you believe it was your families love, and hope they had for you, or was it God’s love, and His hope pouring out of them for you?
I believe it was God's love, and His hope pouring out of them for me. God is love. It is so easy to turn your back on someone when they fail. God's love flowing through us is the only thing that has gotten us this far. The only thing that has kept us together.
Vicki’s response: I also know through your story it was His judgement, and truth you accepted that kept your family together. Your wife did not ignore your wrong choices, you both faced them together, and took what came together, and both were not afraid to pay the price to get through this problem you had created. This also will prove to all people God is a God of love and judgement and we all live through all of Him and share what He gives each of us through one another and forgive and begin again.
Do you believe one of the reasons a lot of his children may become worldly is they are taught wrong from the very beginning, and are being deceived?
I believe some churches have watered down Christianity. If the clergy is not teaching the Word of God, then those in the congregation are being deceived. There is a spiritual war being waged between good and evil. People need to be made aware of what is right and what is wrong according to scripture, and if the church is not teaching it then the members need to find a new church.
Do you believe all God’s children can be pulled away from the Lord by the cares of this world, and that is a normal response for all His children, or does it depend on who each of them are, and how they relate to Him?
I believe God intends all of us to live a life according to His will. I also believe God gave us freewill and everyone is susceptible to sin. How deep one falls, depends on the individual. I have found if a person gives into one sin, an inch, it will take a mile, and soon the person will be drowning in it. From my own personal experience the devil used a chink in my Spiritual armor to work his way into my life. The Apostle Paul tells us, "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." I still may sin but I immediately turn away from it and turn to God.
Vicki’s response: Amen, “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God”, but He did not sin and He does not fall short, that is why He could only die for us, so through Him we will not either if we walk in the light as He is in the Light, and if we do sin He intercedes for us by our repentance. We never should live in it any longer if we are walking in and through His light.
Do you think the devil as the power to lay the ground work for our circumstances, or do you think God has power over the devil?
God is the creator of all things and has power over all things. If we look at the story of Job the devil needed permission from God to attack Job.
God gives us the right to choose. To sin or not to sin. Prior to my incarceration, I was not walking the path God had intended for me. I chose sin. I chose death. Now, I choose life.
Vicki response: Job is a wonderful message from God that reveals His power over Satan, and God was the one that told Satan about testing Job’s faith, and righteousness, not the other way around.
If God gives each person the right to choose sin or not to sin then why do we need the Cross? 
We all sin we all need a Savior. In my case I chose to continue sinning instead of sincerely repenting and asking for forgiveness.
Vicki’s response: I think your key word is “continue”, and many continue without sincerely repenting. I believe your story will awaken many sleeping “repenters” to an awakening to what true repentance means.
Do you believe it is the choices we make with our own power, or more of a choice to give our will to Him making those choices for us through His power?
I believe when we are walking in the way we are in sync with the Holy Spirit. I do not make any choices until I take it to God in prayer. No longer do I make any hasty decisions, I wait for the Spirit to lead. 
Do you believe a child or an adult can fully give up all and be completely devoted to Him all their lives?
I believe one can be completely devoted to God, but that they will still be in a constant battle with sin. The more we walk in the way the less likely we will fall off the path God has laid out for us. When we devote our lives to God, our tools for battling sin become stronger. We become spiritually stronger through a steady diet of prayer and God's Holy Word.

Do you believe God convicts us through His Spirit every time we sin or some time? 
I believe God convicts us through the Holy Spirit every time we sin. Once again it depends on how in tune we are to the Spirit. When I was a living a sinful life the voice of conviction was faint. The darkness of this world was making me blind to see the poor choices I was making. Just like when Jesus gave sight to the blind he has opened my eyes to the truth. When I sin I sense it immediately, I sincerely repent, and turn to God.
Do you believe we ignore Him, and choose not to listen to him more than He ignores us, and listens to us?
God does not ignore His children. I believe what happens is the more we live in the world the less we can hear God when He calls. Now that I have devoted my life to working for the King when He calls I hear him loud and clear.
Do you believe we can serve the world, ourselves, others, and God at the same time?
I have been determined to live by the motto God first, family second and everything else a distant third. I do not begin my day before prayer, reading, and meditating on the Bible. This is not a guarantee that I will have a care free day, but it helps prepare me for what lies ahead and keeps me focused on the cross. We can serve the world, ourselves and others but we always need to serve and seek God first.
Vicki’s response – I believe God gives us that determination and will to do what pleases Him from all He gives us of himself through His Spirit. Our Lord was very determined to please His Father and through that same Spirit when we receive Him we receive that same determination.
Do you think God picks us up through our faith in Him giving us all we need to lift ourselves up, or we pick ourselves up by our own faith, power, and grace when we fall?
God picks us up through our faith. Our faith grows as we draw closer to God and as we become more dependent on God. I lacked faith in God and tried to become independent and do things on my own. Dependence on God is all He ever wanted from me.
Do you think it is our faith, or His faith given to us through His Spirit?

It is not our faith but it is His faith given through His Spirit. The faith I have is because of Christ in me. 
Your last statement in your book, “No matter how many times the devil knocks me down,” doesn’t that imply that you think he can knock you down?
The Apostle Paul often referred to our walk with Christ as an athletic event.  I finished the first edition of the book in 2014 after I was released from prison. The devil was coming at me in all different directions and yes sometimes he would knock me down, but by the grace of God I would get up before the 10 count.  I have trained in the way of the Lord and my faith has gotten stronger. It has been a long time since the devil knocked me down.  He may knock me back a step, but never down again.
Vicki’s response: I know if I keep walking in the light as He is in the light the devil has no power to knock me back or down. If God is for us through His Son, who has the power in hell or earth to make us step back, trip, or fall ever again? No other spirit, including our human spirit, can stand up to our Heavenly Father through His Son. If we are willing to give ourselves to Him wholeheartedly, because He is willing to give us all we need to walk in the light as He was, is, and always will be for eternity in His light.
John, thank you so much for joining me, and my readers on my blog! It was a wonderful adventure reading your book, and learning about you personally! God’s work in you, through your life story, and His gifts, this book, Therefore I have Hope, reveals another proof He is real, and can transform anyone who is willing to give all of themselves to Him. Your life, His gifts, and your book revealed to me He never gives up on a soul no matter how hopeless it may seem there is always hope in Him taking His reborn children beyond themselves in ways they can't imagine! May He continue to increase, while you decrease, so all people who read or hear His testimony of who He is in your life, any way He gives you, may be drawn to Him. I know I was drawn to Him all the way through it! We both give Him all the glory and the praise for the work He has given both of us to share!

Can we truly hear the voice of God, or is His voice based on our feelings?

Can we truly hear God’s voice within, or is His voice based only on our “feelings?”

John 10:27 My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.

My last blog discussed God’s wisdom and how we can receive it, and attain it, but many do not hear His voice to attain His wisdom above any others, and they are being deceived thinking it is His voice. To many voices can prevent us from hearing God's One true voice. Are you protecting your ears?
Some “Christians” claim they do not hear God’s voice speaking to them, they live by their “feelings.” They claim they feel Him because of the way they “feel” when they face a problem, sin, or heart break. Jesus did not say His “sheep” will hear me by the way they “feel,” He said they will know His voice, listen to it, and follow it because they belong to Him.  He tells the Pharisee’s of His day they were not his sheep that is why they did not listen to His voice, believe Him, or follow Him.
John 10:25 Jesus answered, “I did tell you, (Pharisees) but you do not believe. The miracles I do in my Father’s name speak for me, but you do not believe because you are not my sheep.
Most of us know God is not here in the flesh as He was when He walked this earth through His Spirit in His First Holy Son Jesus Christ. How are we supposed to hear someone that is not here, know His voice, and follow Him. How are we to discern which voice is Him, Satan, our own voice, or the voice of the world? 
It is through His life given Spirit we are reborn children of God experiencing eternal life, and He is present working in us, and through us redeeming our lost relationship with our Father due to our sinful flesh natural human nature that He crucifies daily as we surrender our body, spirit and soul in His hands to use, mold and shape into the image of the fullness of God.
The Holy Spirit of God that is in us wants to speak, walk, judge, and finish the building up of His Kingdom through us. We are all sent as He was sent. Everything we do with our bodies, how we think, what we say, how we say it, any decision we make, and what or who breaks our heart, matters, and is very important to Him every moment of your life. 

We do not know how the Spirit came within us, only we know He is there, we hear His voice, we are willingly to be His, and follow His voice as a sheep follows a shepherd. We are like His sheep, and are willing to be obedient doing our "Shepherds" will at all cost because we know His will is best for us. We are His sheep as if He was our One true Shepherd knowing He will give us all we need. We hear and know His voice above all others.

 John 36: Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, “You (Greek is plural) must be born again. The wind blows where ever it pleases, you hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So, it is with every born of the Spirit.
Nicodemus had not experienced this encounter with God’s Spirit within himself up to this point in time because our Lord had not risen so He could not rise in Nicodemus. It was hard from Him to understand, and if He has not risen fully in us it also will be hard for us to understand. Those that did, and do experience their rebirth after His resurrection knew, and know exactly what Jesus was saying because they understood due to the Holy Spirit teaching them, they knew His voice, flowed Him, and He worked through them as He worked through His First Son. 

We can testify to what happened to the first disciples that continued to follow Him after His resurrection, they knew His voice, listened only to Him, and followed only Him. His Holy Spirit and power rose in them from the dead, and they completely understood all He had said, and they continually heard his voice, because He was within each of them as He is in each of us today.
Now that we understand His voice is given through His Spirit that rises in us that gives us rebirth, He speaks to us, we listen, and follow His voice how does God give us the ears to hear Him, and know His voice, and others don't.
First, He prepares our ears to hear only His voice by the relationship He offers us from the cross, all people, and we protect our ears to only hear Him over any other person, or thing in this world. He prepares first by all He gives us, then we protect.

I do not think many "Christians" that came before us for centuries did much protecting of their ears due to the evidence of the majority of the churches today that followed them. We must make sure no other voice holds us captive. Sounds simple, and it is if we are all willing to face His truth His Word provides. 

We make His guidance, His work, or hearing His voice more complicated each time we do not put His relationship above all others. He must be above all relationships in our past, and in our future for us to be able to hear only His voice above all others. His voice must be above all others in our hearts this moment, and each moment that follows regardless who is speaking. 

They could be a great man in the eyes of the religious community, or in the world, it should not matter who the man or the women is. If the Father, Son and Holy Spirit is truly is the most important voice in our lives we will hear Him and His truth, and protect our ears from hearing any other voice because He tells us what is true and what is false. Our lives are made of moments to glorify Him, and who He is in our daily lives that surpasses any other human need we may have.
We begin following other people, fathers, mothers, preachers or priest, and yes, even the Pope very easily if they are most important. Many people put others before Him all the time, and do not realize it, and therefore, His voice is being hindered because they have not been protecting their ears. When we begin to cherish man-made traditions, and basic teachings of this world we are blocking His voice. 

It is hard not to hear God if a person truly does put Him above all others, want to please Him above all, and obey Him above all. If a person truly does want to please Him they will always hear Him above the voice of any man or woman, trouble, heartache, the world, or Satan. There could be a million-people following a certain doctrine, but His sheep will be able to hear only Him, because they know Him, and want to follow only Him, and they can by themselves if they must, and leave all other voices behind. They want to protect their ears from hearing all other voices besides His. They do not want any other voice to keep them from Hearing His.
The reason many do not hear His voice is they do not protect their ears from all the other voices. They keep wanting to hear and follow other voices, they road his voice is on is very narrow compared to all the other voices. They are determined their way is right, but they have no proof they are following His way, and life through the Word He has given. There is only One word the true Shepherd (Son) follows, and that is the word of His Father.
2:8 See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world, rather than on Christ.
If any of us are basing our worship and lives on any other instructions, teachings other than on Christ then we are not going to hear Him and know His voice, and many today are being deceived by hearing other voices, and following them but their beliefs and lives do not align with His word.
Submission: Do you truly desire to Hear Him and only Him? First, when His Spirit is revealed in us, do we submit to Him as our Lord, or do we make Him submit to us, our way, and our image of who we want Him to be? He is our Lord, and our Lord does not submit to our ways, thoughts, and views of ourselves, the world, and Satan. We submit to His ways, teachings and word; not the other way around. Ask Him to help you silence your own thoughts, the opinions of men and all that is not Him in you.  He will, but you must be willing to travel down that narrow road when He reveals His truth to you, and you will always here his truth, the lies of Satan and the world that are trying to deceive you.
Resist Do you truly want to resist your sinful nature, the world and the power of darkness? Do you truly want to break what binds you and has you all tied up inside? If you do not, you will not hear His voice because the sinful life is blocking His voice. This does not mean His child that does hear Him will hate other people. This means you resist their ways, teachings, sins, and all that is not God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. 

Are you truly wanting to resist all evil? Repentance and confessing one sins to God opens our ears to hearing His voice. Ignoring your sin, or the sins of others will keep you from hearing God’s voice. Are you wanting to please Him above all? Remember every human being is evil with their own evil desires within each of them. Are we wanting and willing to resist all evil? 

The good of man, and His own righteousness, is evil as any evil there is in God’s sight. Making oneself a "god" is  making one self an idol. We all need to use the authority Jesus Christ has given us through His Spirit and word to silence the voice of the enemy. The evil spirits, lies and deception will flee from all He gives us if we are truly wanting to get rid of all that is not Him in us by His power and grace.
2 Corinthians 10:4 The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. WE demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God.
Colossians 1:28 We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ. To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully work in me.
If a person has received His faith, they will except to hear His voice as the Father He is. They will not doubt, or have a over whelming fear, being a false witness revealing someone He isn't.  If a person remains in Him and His words remain in them, whatever they wish, it will be given to them. Those are His children His power works in and through. They know His voice.
John 15:7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father’ glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
God speaks in and through us in different ways:
When a person is allowing God to work freely in and through them, by giving their full heart to Him freely, they will be allowing God to speak to them, and through them any way He chooses for the building up of His Kingdom. We do not dictate to Him the guidance methods we prefer. He is the Father we are the child. There is a direct link between submitting, denying ourselves, yielding to Him and hearing His voice. He may choose to speak to you through His Word of truth, His Holy Bible. This could come in our daily reading of the Bible, but remember to listen to only Him through prayer and meditation. Let your relationship to Him prove to be more important to you personally before the “foot notes” from others. Let Him tell you if the “foot notes” from others confirm what He is speaking to you, if it is different, wait, He will reveal His truth to you where you have no doubts at all.
Psalm 119:107 I have suffered much; preserve my life, O Lord, according to your word.
2 Timothy 3:16 All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.
He may choose to speak to you through an audible voice, this does not need to happen as much today, because He speaks to us within and He does not have to speak to us in an audible voice. He does not have to speak to one person through an audible voice. That does not mean He can’t, He still can if He chooses as He did many times. This encounter with His audible voice I am using is one of my favorite that Moses had with Him seeing parts of His spiritual body, but not His face. I cannot imagine what Moses saw, but His Spirit within me burns with His fire and glory each time I read it.
Exodus 33:19 And the LORD said, “I will cause all my goodness to pass in front to you, and I will proclaim my name, the LORD, in your presence. I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion, But, he said, “You cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live.” Then the LORD said, there is a place near me where you can stand on a rock. When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen.
He may speak to you through dreams and visions
Matthew 2:13 When they had gone an angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream. “Get Up,” he said, “take the child and his mother and escape to Egypt.
Acts 2:17 In the lase days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people, your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams. Even on my servants, both men and women, I will pour out my Spirit in those days, and they will prophesy. I will show wonders in the heaven above and signs on the earth below, blood and fire and billow of smoke.
The most common way He speaks to us is through the quiet inner voice through His Spirit, that shakes our body as if it was roaring thunder compared to any others. It is very clear, you know it, and you can either reject it or follow it every day of your life.
This does not mean once you hear His voice and have given all of yourself to Him above all others and things you are finished, it only means He can begin working fully in you, and you must continue each minute putting Him above all so He can continually fully work in and through you all the days of your life. It is much easier to die once for Him physically, than it is to live for Him daily Spiritually. 

His love His Spirit reveals to us gives us is limitless, growing higher and higher in the depth of His love and power for each of us, and through us to share with the whole world as His first sons and daughters did through His Word of truth. Those that first bore His fruit of healing spiritually, physically, emotionally and intellectually, His first followers, His first body of believers, and His early church testifies too should be His same church body today, but clearly it is not.

 For some it may take a life time to give up their sinful lives, the way of the world, and putting others, or following others above Him. For some they may give up a little here, and a little there all of their lives. For others, they give up all at one time, and continue giving up all daily, and this can happen to anyone at the age they are accountable of knowing their own sins.
Isaiah 30:21 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” Then you will defile your idols over laid with silver and your images covered in gold, you will throw them away like a menstrual cloth and say to them, away with you!”
Everything and spirit that is not Him should be like menstrual cloths compared to what He wants to give us. Have all things, spiritual, physical, intellectual, and emotional in us, that is not Him, become like a menstrual cloth to us? 

Are we putting anything or anyone above Him now, we should not think about other “Christians” in the past, or those in the present, why they went this way, or going this way. We need to think about only Him, His life, crucifixion, resurrection, through His instructions He gave all of us through His Holy Words that live in us through His Spirit. 
Only through Him can we help ourselves and anyone else. Are we truly willing to follow Him regardless of anyone else going their way?
His inner voice His sheep will always hear, and know it because they know Him, whether they go to the right or to the left, up a mountain or in a storm every minute and every day of their lives. He will always lead them to follow Him and His voice in the right spirit, mind, body and soul His Spirit only can give them.
Those who hear and know His voice will reveal His presence. Their souls, body and spirit will change according to His image through His given power and grace. If we hear His voice, and are following His voice He will be shaping us, and molding us to the image of His Son by His Given Spirit revealing wonders, signs and miracles in their changed lives. 

This is for the purpose of giving our Heavenly Father glory in showing His healing power physically, spiritually, intellectually, and emotionally! Then He will use His reborn children to draw people that want to live in His light so all of them will see what was done in and through them was done by their Heavenly Father through His Son, and they will glorify their Father in Heaven!

How do we attain God's wisdom?

How do we receive and attain God’s wisdom?
By His given relationship through His Son can we only receive, and attain His Wisdom. Not through “religion”, but through His relationship given to us through His Son. The Book of Proverbs is full of God’s divine wisdom for us to learn from. Those who have received the Spirit of God through Jesus Christ our Lord by way of the Cross, by their daily crucifying of their will for His through His relationship will gain His wisdom. He is their built-in Counselor full of God’s divine wisdom that walks and speaks to them daily. The Book of Proverbs is living in them, as it did in Solomon and now through His Son Jesus, and His wisdom is pouring out for others what He has put in.
John 14:25 All this I (Jesus) have spoken while still with you. (1 disciples). But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things, and will remind you of everything I have said to you.
This tells us through Christ, and the Cross, we have a built-in reminder sent by God through Jesus of all Jesus said, He is the Word of God, is within each of us. All His instructions are given to us out of love for us to live by, if we love Him above all we will be living by them. If we are using our ears to listen to Him, and our hearts belonging only to Him above all He will counsel us every minute of every day, because He never leaves us, and He is always with us for our good. It is people who leave him, listen to other voices, and He is not wholeheartedly above all in their lives is why He can’t work in and through them properly.
Proverbs 2 gives us some insight of how the Counselor’s wisdom within us works when our relationship with Him is proven in our lives. It is a great proof that God sent to those who truly love Him so they can understand how they know what they know about their Heavenly Father. Has He proved these words to be true in your life without a doubt, without shame, without fear, and, without confusion?
Proverbs 2:1-5 My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding, and if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure, then you will understand the fear of the LORD and find the knowledge of God.
The first response proving our relationship with Him is complete will be if we accept His words or not. God does not demand us to accept His words, He says If you do… Any relationship we have with another human requires us to listen and accept their words or not. Our words and our conversations matter if a relationship with someone truly matters. With God, it is no different. He has offered this relationship with Him, we listen to Him, and it is up to us to accept His word or not.
I use to think it was very hard not to accept God’s word He gives a person through His message of the Cross through His Life-giving Spirit and Word because when I received Him, His grace had a huge effect on me. I could not help but to be drawn to His word, accept it and never leave it. Not all people respond to Him that way, nor do they want too. 

I first heard Him, and His words through a woman He sent to me in my late forties. That was the first time anyone had set down with me, and told me about Him the Cross, and what it truly meant. It was the first time I heard Him speak “His” words directly to me. I do not know if it was because I had been taught wrong, or my own hears were blocked by what I thought about myself. Either way, that was the first time I heard HIM and HIS words through another person.
Why is it easy for some to accept His words, and for others it is not? There are many reasons why people cannot accept His words. First, they are hearing the wrong words, the wrong gospel, and with the wrong spirits, and they are not His. They are coming from another spirit that is not Him, but they may be claiming they are coming from Jesus, and God. They are being deceived without realizing it.
2 Corinthians 11:3 For if someone comes to you and preaches a Jesus other than the Jesus we preached, or if you receive a different spirit from the one you received, or a different gospel from the one you accepted, you put up with it easily enough.
Second, their ears may be blocked thinking they are not worthy enough to hear Him, and they believe their sin is to sinful for Him to save. Third, it may be because they are too prideful going their own way whether it is their good works, their own accomplishments, and their own building themselves up to be the god that saves themselves. They cannot hear Him as their God due to themselves and others in their way they have put above Him.
Fourth, there may be many things in life they love above Him, and this can be people, family members, and friends and the world they live in. The world says our life and human beings matter more to us than God, God tells us we must lose our life, and ourselves, for His sake, before we can find our true life, and ourselves. Before we can accept God and His words we must hear them, His Words that are coming from Him, not a natural man, and that includes ourselves making Him submit to our own image of Him. God does not submit to our understanding, we submit to His.
store up my commands within you, turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding,
store up my commands within you
As human beings, we store up many things other than His commandments or instructions. If our relationship is being proven as a child and a Father relationship, we will be willing to store up all of our Fathers instructions as a child wanting to be taught only by Him. 

I remember storing up moral teachings of my mother and father that would help me in life, respect your elders, say thank you, and please, ask for forgiveness and forgive others. We store up all kinds of things in our heart and mind, and sometimes material possession during our journey through life. 

All human beings store up different teachings, memories with their family and friends, money, food, clothes, collectibles, our works, and accomplishments before we store up His commandments or instructions. This life, and this world continually draws us to please ourselves, and others above pleasing Him and His relationship. Are we storing up anything above His teachings and instructions?
turning your ear to wisdom
As human beings, we hear many voices of wisdom constantly if our ears are turned on to wisdom. Many of us do not turn our ears on to any wisdom, we travel through life not paying attention to any certain wisdom. Some travel through life hearing their own wisdom, and different voices each day, depending on the circumstances and the person that is speaking. God says they are like the waves, their minds are being tossed back and forth because they have doubt in His words.

James 1:5 If anyone lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who give generously to all without finding fought, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea blown and tossed by the wind.
When you turn yourself to  God, and His wisdom He speaks to you all the time, He corrects, and counsels you about everything you are doing for His purpose and plan making you one with the Father in relationship as the Son was with the Father. 

If our ears are not turned on to God we will never hear Him, we will hear every other voice but His. If our relationship is not complete in Him we will think of other things above Him. If our relationship is complete in God our our ears are turned to God, and we are storing up all He gives us, then He will pour it out when we need it, and when others need it. Are we turning our ears to Him and His Wisdom, because His relationship is above all others in our lives?
applying your heart to understanding
As human beings, we apply our heart to many things, and people of this world. What we apply our hearts to the most will be revealed through our speech, and actions the most.  If we are applying our heart to His understanding above all others, then His understanding of who He is will be revealed the most in our speech and actions. 

We could be applying our hearts to any possession, our work, our sexual lustful desires, sports, hobbies, anything that “sounds” good, or makes us “feel” good and easy to understand, but it may not be God’s understanding given to us. Just because it sounds "good" or "feels" good does not make it His good. What sounds valuable to man is detestable to God. That is why we apply our heart only to His understanding.

Luke 16:15 He (Jesus) said to them, (Pharisees) "You are the ones who justify yourselves in the eyes of men, but God knows you hearts. What is high valued among men is detestable in God's sight.

His understanding erases all confusion, doubt and fear in who we are, and who God is. Understanding means the knowledge and the ability to judge. Are you a person, and am I a person, who has been given the understanding of God, and the ability to judge who He is within us and through us for others? Are we applying our hearts to His understanding above all in who we are, if we are then His understanding will be revealed in us and through us, not our understanding of who He is or who we are.
and if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding
Here is another if from God that reveals IF our relationship is complete in Him. If we are calling out to Him for His insight, and we cry aloud to Him for His understanding then our relationship is complete in Him.

I admit I called out many times before I knew Him, but it was for my own way, and for my own insight, and for my own understanding. I was loud standing up for my own understanding, before I heard about Him through His Words of truth. I cried out many times searching for this love I was missing. I didn’t have any idea how to find this love, and why I was missing it. I had all kinds of people and friends loving me their way all around me, but I still was missing His. I cried out for my own way, I cried out loud for my understanding, and for my pleasure when it came to my children. I did not think of anyone else, or God, all I cried out for was for me and my justice. 

The first time I did cry out to Him my life began to change.
He is telling us if we cry out to Him for insight, regardless of who we see ourselves as being, and cry aloud to Him for His understanding, whether we understand Him, life, ourselves or not; He will answer. He goes further explaining how we will cry out to Him if our relationship if our heart is truly seeking Him. 
and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure,
We are storing up what He only can give us spiritually, turning our ears only to hear Him, applying our hearts only to His understanding, crying out for His insight, and cry aloud for His understanding he then tells us how we will be looking for His insight and understanding through the relationship He has given us. We are looking at His relationship meaning more than all the silver and treasure in the world! 

We will be looking for his insight as it was silver, and searching for His understanding like it was a hidden treasure! Is His relationship being proven to be more treasured than silver and gold in your life? Then all the possessions this world has to offer? 
When these words began living in me, and they did before I read them, or they were read to me, I felt strange loving a God I could not see, craving and desiring a presence and word I could not touch and receiving wisdom and insight as if they were silver, and a treasure I thought I would never find. I could not explain how He was doing all of this inside of me, and I still can't, all I knew, and still know is His relationship was true and the most real relationship I had ever experienced.
His commandments, and word I wanted to store more than anything else in my life. I wanted to turn my ears only to Him, and disregard all other voices that were not His. I wanted to apply my heart only to Him in what He wanted to give me of Himself above applying anything, anyone else, so I could understand Him, and all He was giving me each day. I knew what He was giving me was not only for me, but for others.
All He was given me was a treasure I held more dear than all the treasure this world could give me, in all its ways, and through all its inhabitants that could be shaken, and that included myself. Then He told me why?
Then you will understand the fear of the LORD and find the knowledge of God.
All this He was given me because He wanted me to fear losing Him above all, and to gain knowledge of Him above all knowledge of myself, others, Satan, and this world. Then I would know He is greater than all my problems, all my sufferings, all of Satan’s schemes and lies, all my temptations, all in this world that could be shaken, and last, but certainly not least, greater than death. This did not take him long to teach me, as many teach and say. Why you ask? 

Because since the beginning, when I first received Him, I have always accepted His words, stored up only what He was giving me above all, turned only to Him, applied my heart only to His understanding, cried out only to Him, and thought of all He was given me through our relationship as greater than any treasure on earth! I listened, trusted, and obeyed.
I am nothing special, I am not wise, and I have no understanding of life and this world, but I know He is and does have all I need to be who I truly am through His eyes.

I also know He has all you truly need to accept His word, store up His teachings and instructions, turn only to Him, apply your heart only to His understanding, cry out only to Him, and to know He is the greatest treasure on earth you will ever know!

Who is your judge?

Who is your judge, and can you hear Him judge all things you do, say and think today?
Have you heard other “Christians” say, “I don’t think about Him and what He is telling me when I do, say, or think something”, and God is telling you something different. He tells you that he makes a judgement about all things you say, do and think, but you are not subject to any man’s judgement.
1 Corinthians 2:15 The Spiritual mind makes judgments about all things, but he himself if not subject to any man’s judgment: For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.
It amazes me above all things in this world every day that I have been given the Holy Mind of God through His Son Jesus Christ to teach me, guide me, judge me, tell me the way to go, the way to speak, what to speak and how to live every day, right now, and every minute of my life! 

He does not do this to condemn me, but to save me from myself, Satan and this world! He also does this through His other children for His purpose to encourage me to stay close to Him and not drift away. His children judge themselves through His Spirit of truth, then His Spirit judges through them for His other children building themselves up in Him making a Kingdom of His own.
Our Father tells us His Holy Spirit that is living in Christians, that belong to Him, speaks to them about all things they do, say, and think if their mind and heart belong to Him they will always hear Him. If their mind and heart do not belong to him then they are Spiritually discerned living through their natural flesh, and cannot hear Him. If we are His we will be experiencing this one-on-one relationship with Him judging everything that we do, say, and think for His will, purpose and plan for our lives right now everyday!

1 Corinthians 2:13 That is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words. The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and are spiritually discerned.  
A person that is spiritually discerned will never hear God make judgments about all things they do, say, or think they are still living through their natural mind and cannot accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for the words He speaks are foolishness to them and they cannot understand them.
Many today claim to be “spiritual human beings”. There are many spirits in the world, but only One Holy Spirit that has the mind of God, and He can only be received through Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior from the Cross.  This past weekend I was traveling in the mountains and came across the Native American Ten Commandments, and this is what I read.
The Earth is our Mother care for her.
Honor all your relations.
Open your heart and soul to the Great Spirit.
All life is sacred, treat all beings with respect.
Take from the Earth what is needed and nothing more.
Do what needs to be done for the good of all.
Give constant thanks to the Great Spirit for each new day.
Speak the truth, but only of the good in others.
Follow the rhythms of the nature, rise and retire with the sun.
Enjoy life’s journey but leave no tracks.
The Native American’s claim to be spiritual people, and they were, and still are, but they are not Holy Spirit filled unless they have been given our Father’s Holy Spirit through the Cross of His First Holy Son. You can read from what they believed there is some of our Father’s truth mixed in with their commandments, but unless they are given His Holy Spirit no matter how spiritual they think they are they are not Holy Spirit filled, and will not understand God’s Holy Word, it will sound foolish to them.
All humans are spiritual, and most today are molding Him and creating Him in their own image instead of the other way around. Many are trying to make God to fit their mind and calling it His mind.
If a person’s mind is on Jesus Christ then they will always here Him through His Spirit judging everything they do, say and think because He wants to make them One with the Father as the Son was One with the Father. If He is not first, and many think He is, then they will never hear Him because their ears are blocked by yourself, other things, and people in this world.

John 17:22 I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one. I in them and you in me. 
For example:
If you are sinning He will tell you every time what you are doing is wrong, and do not continue to do it or something worse will happen to you because He loves you and wants to save you. If you continue then you will not hear Him because your ears are becoming blocked by the sin you keep committing. This person will become spiritually discerned because they are living through their flesh wanting to please it and not through His Spirit. They also will begin following other false teachers teaching them what their itching ears want to hear.
John 5:14 Later Jesus found him at the temple and said to him, “See, you are well again. Stop sinning or something worse may happen to you.”
If you are thinking of yourself, others, or things in this world above Him you are not going to hear Him speak to you because you, and the things of this world are more important than He is. You may “feel” like you know Him, but truly you are Spiritually discerned because He is not first in your life. Fear of this world, doubt, and other things in this world still have you captive, and you are not totally free in Him to hear His true judgments that keep you on His righteous path.
John 2:15 Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love to the Father is not in him. For everything in the world – the craving of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting what he has and does- comes not from the Father but from this world. The world and its desire pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.
If you are risking your life in any way other than for His name sake, He will be telling you what you are doing is not His will for your life. If He is first in your life you will hear Him, and if He is not you will not hear Him because the world and what it is offering you is more important than what He is offering you. God does not want you to risk your life for worldly desires, your own glory, heroism, and worldly pleasures.
Matthew 10:39 Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.
Many “Christians” do not “think” this way because what is on their mind is things in this world above Him, and many people are not aware because they are being deceived. Many people claim today that He is first in their mind and heart but their lives prove He is not by the things they do, or not willing to do, the way they think, live, and speak.
Do you hear Him judge all things that you do, say and think? Are you completely free in Him, do you have fear, shame, guilt, doubt and worry over taking your mind and heart? Are you more aware of others in what they are doing before you look at yourself in what you are doing, saying, and thinking? Are you thinking more about pleasing yourself, others, and what the world is offering than what He is offering?
If you truly want to hear Him all the time judging you in what you do, say, and think then truly put Him above all things and people. Then you will always hear Him. Be truthful with yourself, do not be prideful, or have self-piety. Do not be afraid to speak the truth to Him, he wants you to be truthful to Him above yourself, and all other people. Only through Him can you be true to yourself.

Begin today repenting of all thoughts, speech, things, ways, teachings, that are not Him.  You can be totally free having Him be your judge, judging all the things you do, say, and think so you too can have the mind, and heart of Christ keeping you safe in your Father’s will and arms now, and for eternity! 

Who is the Engineer?

Who is the Engineer?

From one man, he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us. For in him we live and move and have our being.
Engineer – to lay out or mange – to guide the course of – syn: pilot, lead or steer
Many today are teaching God does not arrange our engineer our circumstances, that is a lie, do not listen, Satan is trying to deceive you so you will mold God into an image you want and not who He truly is. He determines the times, and the exact places we are to be each day so we will seek Him and reach out to Him, and perhaps find Him. Only through His Son we can live through Him, and move in the right direction and be who we are supposed to be in Him.
From one man, Adam, God our Father made every nation of human beings. Why?
 Because He wanted them to inhabit the whole earth.
Who determined the times set for them, and the exact places where they should live?  He did
(NIV) He determined the times set for them, and the exact places where they should live
(KJV) and hath determined the times before appointed, and the bounds of their habitation;
The word determined means ordained, or willed beforehand. We have no control where God places us, he determines the times set for us and the bounds of our habitation.
The word time means “season”. This could be a season of crisis or blessing, we have no control over the times that he has given each of us to go through good or bad. We do not control the time, the bounds or limits of our habitation, He determines that, or ordains that for each human being.
The word bounds, or exact places means exact limits or boundaries he has placed them in.
He gives each of us our own limits we live with and through. Some have more than others but all bounds or limits He has given each human being because He is drawing them to Him, it is up to us in how we respond to our limits or places He has put us in.
This means our Father engineers our births, environments, our crisis, or blessing each of us are born into, or live through for His purpose of giving every human being an opportunity to seek him and perhaps find Him, so they can live through His provision.  Why would God cause us to suffer in the time he places us in, or give us our own limits in this life?
NIV God did this so that men would seek him, and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us.
(KJV)That they should seek the Lord, if haply they might feel after him, and find him, though he be not far from every one of us.
God placed us in our time, and gave us our limitations in order that we might seek Him, feel after him and find him through Christ. A natural man is made to need God, but they do not know they need God, so through suffering a man’s limitations or boundaries are revealed, and they have been given an opportunity to seek and perhaps find God that takes them beyond themselves, and their own limits. Is he far away from any human being?
No, He is not far from each one of us, but only through Jesus Christ do we know how close His love and presence is to us, and how far our love is away from Him. Only through His Spirit can we remain close to Him, and Him to us for His word to be dwelling in us as the Son was One with the Father we also are One with the Father through Him. Why? Because only through Him can we truly live, go where ever He leads without fear, and know our true selves.
For In Him we live and move and have our being.
This statement tells us when we live through His Spirit, He will move us forever forward by His guiding love and wisdom. We  know who we are in Him regardless of our circumstances, because we have our being, or soul in Him. Our soul is well no matter the circumstance he has placed us in, because in Him we have no limit, He will draw others to Him through us because we live and move in Him.
Some people today think human beings control the times and the places they are in by their determined will or choices they make. That would mean the righteous would make good choices and all good things would happen to them, and the unrighteous would make bad choices and all misery would be due to their own choices. This world would require no need for a Savior or the Cross.
For example, for the unrighteous in this world every time a person would make a bad choice in drinking excessively and drive then an accident would occur. Each time a person smoked they would get lung cancer. Each time an expected mother did drugs her child would be born an addict. Each time a homosexual practiced an act of sexual immorality they would become infected with the aids virus. Each time a person committed adultery they would get a divorce and their marriage would fail.
In this world, the righteous would never smoke, and they would never have lung cancer. They would eat right, exercise, and no sickness would take over their bodies. They would not commit adultery and their marriages would never fail. They would never practice any homosexual act so they would never become infected with the aids virus.
In the real natural world, we know there are some people who never smoke, but they still get lung cancer. In the real natural world, we also know many who eat right, exercise, and sickness still over takes their body, and mind in many ways. We also know in the real natural world people drink excessively, and do not get involved in a accident. We also know marriages don’t always fail when someone commits adultery, and others fail without committing adultery. We also know homosexuals that commit sexual immorality are not affected by the aids virus, and we also know some people are effected by the aids virus that have never committed a sexual immoral act.
God wrote Ecclesiastes through Solomon or through another wise man to prove how we fit into God’s life given to us through His Son. He had seen in his world what we see in ours, and God tells us who, and what we all should consider.
Ecclesiastes 7:12-13 Wisdom is a shelter as money is a shelter, but the advantage of knowledge is this: that wisdom preserves the life of its possessor. Consider what God has done: Who can straighten what he has made crooked? When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider; God has made the one as well as the other, Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.
Ecclesiastes 7:15 In this meaningless life of mine I have seen both of these:
a righteous man perishing in his righteousness, and a wicked man living in in his wickedness. Do not be over righteous, neither be over wise- why destroy yourself? Do not be over wicked, and do not be a fool- why die before your time? It is good to grasp the one and not let go of the other. The man who fears God will avoid every extreme.
Others believe God controls everything and no freewill is required because he controls everything so it does not matter what they are willing to give up or willing to keep because His will, will be done, regardless of their will.  This too would require no need for the Cross because whether one believes in Christ or not would not matter in this world they believe in because they believe God’s will prevails for the believer as well as the unbelievers regardless of the choices they make.
This is “half true”, regardless of the choices we make God’s will, will be accomplished and done according to His purpose and plan for all Heaven, earth, and that includes all the inhabitants on earth, but those who do not receive Jesus Christ will not know His personal will, and plan for their own personal lives, and will not be able for their souls to be a live in Him, and through them now and for eternity. Those who freely receive Christ and willingly have received all they have been given by Him, and they will freely give to others whatever they have received from Him doing His will for their lives. They all know God and His perfect will for their lives because they have submitted all of themselves to Him everyday of their lives.
Matthew 10:7 As you go, preach this message: The kingdom of Heaven is near, Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give.
This does not mean His children who are living in, and through Him will not be disciplined by Him through hardships. This is not Satan trying to destroy his children has some may be taught, and it is not God engineering His children to suffer for no reason or His purpose behind it. This is God disciplining his children as our Father because He loves us. He will use anything He chooses to discipline us if it makes us more faithful, holy, and dependent on Him.  He knows what will move us to submitting more to Him. He desperately wants to work in and through us for our good and the good of others.  He knows who will submit more of themselves to Him through His discipline and who will not. We can either run from Him or run to Him by submitting more of ourselves to Him by the faith He gives us.
Hebrews 12:9 Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful, later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.
His discipline produces a harvest of His righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it, but for those who have not been trained by His discipline they will not produce His righteousness and have His peace.
God teaches us through Paul many times without holiness no one will see the Lord, and this is what our Father’s discipline is aimed in producing in, and through His children. He arranges these hardships in our lives for His purpose of making us a people of His very own, because He knows what is best for us so we can live in and through Him, be healed by His power and grace that produces in us His holiness.
Today do not listen to people who tell you God does not arrange, or engineer our hardships. If He is your Heavenly Father than He will, and if He isn't than you are not His child. He does for all of us because he wants us to reach out to Him as His child, and perhaps find Him, so we can live in Him, move in Him and have our right being in Him by all He gives us of Himself to live in and through each day!  He is a great Father that engineers everything for our good!!

What is Godly sorrow, and why do we need it?

What is Godly Sorrow, and why do we need it?
Are we becoming a stumbling block to Jesus because we have things of men, and this world on our mind above Him?
Matthew 17:23 Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the things of God, but the things of men.
Today many are proclaiming the “God of love”, and rightly so, He is love. His love is much higher than ours, it changes us, it judges us, and it separates us from the world we live in to be used by Him and through Him for building up His Kingdom. The world cries out no division, no Godly sorrow, and all are loved by God no matter how we respond to Him and the Cross.
God cries out throughout His word and through His Spirit in His First Son, Jesus Christ, “Repent or parish. Jesus tells us through the words His Father gave Him “I have come to bring division” between natural man / and spiritual man, between Satan, the god of this world / and the God of My Kingdom. There are only two kingdoms and two gods we can choose to worship, and there is only ONE of those gods that divides the whole human race. Either you worship Satan and humankind, or God and His Kingdom.
Matthew 4:17 From that time on Jesus began to preach, “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near.
Luke 12:49 “I have come to bring fire on the earth, and how I wish it were already kindled! But I have a baptism to undergo and how distressed I am until it is completed! Do you think I came to bring peace on earth? No, I tell you, but division. From now on there will be five in one family divided against each other, three against two and two against three. They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law.
This word of God reveals to us through Matthew from the beginning of our Lord’s ministry he never stopped preaching repentance to all because His Father’s Kingdom was near. 

He never stopped preaching this until God’s work in and through Him was finished at the Cross. When His presence is fully in us due to our total surrender in faith through His Spirit working as He worked through His Son we too will preach this for ourselves and others until His work in and through us is finished. Some will repent and others will not, this will cause a division among the world, and among families. 

The world tells us there is no need for Godly sorrow, judgement, or conviction of our sins. All the world tells us we can change on our own, and there is no Godly sorrow we need to keep us going in the right direction.
I lived most of my life not knowing what repentance meant, or what Godly sorrow meant. I was ignorant of this teaching so I walked through life unaware of his presence wanting to work in and through me. I do not want you to be ignorant because our Father does not want you to be ignorant of this experience that He gives all His children that He chooses, if you have not experienced within yourself the Godly sorrow His presence lays upon you then you have not been convicted by His Spirit of truth.
I lived most of my life being sorry for my sins, but my sorrow came from me disappointing myself, and disappointing others, but not from disappointing my Heavenly Father.  There was no conviction from His Spirit that gave me “Godly sorrow” which is quite different than our own feelings of sorrow, guilt or shame we receive from ourselves, or others. Godly sorrow is much different than our own convictions of doing something wrong, or not living up to our own expectations of ourselves or the expectation of others.
If we live by our own guilt or the guilt of displeasing others it will quickly go away, or be covered up by our own deeds of righteousness, or self-piety. We will repeat the same sin, or other sins repeatedly because we have no power in us to change us from our evil natures, or our own righteousness that we all are overcome by. The Holy Spirit convicts us all the time of our sins, and our own righteousness. He never stops or gets weary, and in, and through Him we will not either.Our Father tells us this through Luke records of what Jesus said.
John 16:8 When he (Holy Spirit) comes, he will convict the world of guilt in regard to sin, because men do not believe in me; in regard to righteousness because I am going to the father, where you can see me no longer, and in regard to judgment, because the prince of this world now stands condemned.
The Holy Spirit will always convict us of our sins because we cannot believe in Him on our own, this is a good conviction because without Him we cannot believe in Him and be delivered from sin.
The Holy Spirit will always convict us of our good or our own righteousness.  He has gone to the Father so we can receive His. Without Him going to the Father we will not receive His Spirit that convicts us of our own righteousness, and our own righteousness will always lead us in the wrong direction.
The Holy Spirit will always convict us in regard to judgement because we cannot judge ourselves due to the sin within ourselves and Satan’s power over us. Through His given Spirit He judges us, and judges through us keeping us rightly related to God our Father which is the Son’s and Father’s same Spirit of truth. He is making us One with them, and He is the only one that has the power to condemn Satan and his work in and through us for his kingdom of darkness.
Many today are teaching there is no longer any conviction, or Godly sorrow from the Spirit of God through His children, and this is a wrong teaching. Many are teaching he does not convict us all the time, or He does some times, but not other times. He will always convict us because He is trying to make a people of His very own for His Kingdom. He will never ignore our sin, it is us that ignore Him.
The word repentance means a change of mind of past sins, past wisdom, past ways of following other human beings and their wisdom, past following of our own righteousness and self-piety. This means one wants to change their life, and quit sinning for their Heavenly Father’s sake and will, because they know through His Given Spirit they have sinned and are sinning against Him, not themselves, not others, but Him and Him alone. They have received a conviction through His Spirit.
Jeremiah 40:3 Now the Lord hath brought it, and done according as He hath said: because ye have sinned against the Lord and have not obeyed His voice, therefore this thing has come upon you.
When a child of God sins against the Holy Spirit of God they are given repentance in order for them to change for God by His power He gives them to change with. It is different sorrow one receives from sinning against oneself, or the “feeling” one receives from themselves or others high expectations of themselves they will never be able to live up too through their natural human goodness or evil desires, and both will result in wrong motives. 

When a child of God is sinning against the Lord through His Spirit it is different than only sinning against themselves, disappointing their parents, friends, wife, children, boss, coach or teacher. When a child of God sins against His Spirit than His repentance given to them creates Godly sorrow, and Godly sorrow gives them an opportunity to bow down as a child wanting to be taught by his or her Heavenly Father. When a child of God through Christ bows down, humbles themselves as a child, His grace and forgiveness is given that takes them way past themselves in repeating the same sin over again, and they have the power to live for God and not for themselves, this world, or Satan any longer.
God has offered everyone repentance through His Son on the Cross, but not all will repent, or want to change their ways as they all did not the day Jesus offered repentance, and he denounced them publicly without fear.
Matthew 11:20 Then Jesus began to denounce the cities in which most his miracles had been performed, because they did not repent.
The problem many "Christians" are facing today is much like what Jesus faced before His Spirit was given. Many "Christians" us are like Peter before He received the Spirit of truth, seeing Jesus as something for their own purpose in the world, and they are living through their own natural mind seeing their own purpose for him, through their own “feelings,” as Peter did.
Without His Spirit given to Peter, Peter would have never saw Jesus as He truly was. Peter loved Jesus very much, as much as he could naturally, but it was only by what he knew naturally through Peter’s own mind being a natural man, and seeing the world through his natural mind, and not seeing the plans of God through the mind of Christ, because he couldn’t. Jesus rebuked Peter for His own good because Jesus loved Him, and He would rebuke him again and again. Peter had not received His Holy Spirit when he denied him three times. Jesus in turn asked Peter three times if He loved Him. This was not for Peter to prove to Jesus he did, but for Peter to prove to himself that He did, and if he did, he would feed his sheep. Which He did feed his sheep without hesitation, because the feeding of His sheep came through His Spirit. He was heart broken when he denied Jesus, but not truly changed by Godly sorrow that leads to salvation until He received His Spirit of truth.
Many today form Jesus the way they want to perceive Him as Peter did, a loving friend to save them from the rulers of this world, a loving brother to conquer their enemies by his miracles and power, or neighbor willing to change the world without His word, judgment, or truth they can only receive through His teaching, loving Spirit of truth. 

Many "Christians" today are living by their “natural feelings” as Peter was, and not His Holy Spirit of truth that revealed God's will and purpose that truly changed Peter to do His will and not his own. We are all emotional natural human beings with strong emotions, and desires. We are loaded down with natural feelings disguising His true presence as Peter’s feelings disguised his as being something real from God.
Peter received the Spirit of God and knew it was given to convict him, and divided his natural righteousness and evil desires from the nature of God correctly. 

Acts 1:8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samara, and the ends of the earth."

 We all must receive His Spirit that goes much deeper than our feelings and emotions to hearing His voice as if He was sitting right beside us. He gives us all we need to control our feelings and emotions as we hear His voice molding us and shaping us to be His children everyday through His given word of truth that is dwelling in us that opens up his written word.
Godly sorrow is not our natural “feelings” of sorrow from our sins, it is a given gift of God to bring us to where He wants us to be as a loving Father. Jesus tells His disciples
Matthew 11:27 All things have been committed to me by my Father. No one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal Him.
Jesus chose Peter, and knew Peter would respond to His given repentance the right way, bowing down to Him, wanting to change his ways, for the sake of Jesus, because he knew he sinned against Him, not himself or others, but against Him and Him alone. 

That is why He was chosen and that is why we are chosen today, because God knows who will repent and change because they have sinned against Him through His Given Spirit, they have been convicted by His Spirit of truth. 

The same way His Spirit worked in and changed Peter from his natural feelings to God’s nature that surpassed his feelings of conviction into hearing God’s voice of truth that changed Him through the Spirit's convicting work.
God gives us a great description of His gift of repentance through Paul, and what it is given to us for. His repentance is given each time we do sin, and it changes us from continuing to live in sin. Today many do not live by His given, loving and gracious repentance. Many think it is a bad thing to live by God’s gift of repentance, and many today are nullifying this truth of what it means to live with God’s gift of repentance, because they do not want to feel guilty of sinning against God. They have created another teaching and another gospel to live by, and it is deceiving many with no Godly sorrow that brings repentance and leads them to salvation.
(NIV) 2 Corinthians 7:10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that lead to salvation and leave no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death. 11 See what his godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done. At every point, you have proved yourselves to be innocent in this matter.
(KJV)7:11 For behold this selfsame thing, that ye sorrowed after a godly sort, what carefulness it wrought in you, yea, what clearing of yourselves, yea, what indignation, yea, what fear, yea, what vehement desire, yea, what zeal, yea, what revenge! In all things ye have approved yourselves to be clear in this matter.

Godly sorrow through His Spirit produces or manifest many things within ourselves. It is a perfect work God works in us and through us for others.
1)    Godly sorrow brings repentance or a change of heart for His purpose of His Spirit working in us, and through us.
2)    Godly sorrow through His Spirit  leads to our salvation with NO regret, only mercy and forgiveness.
This is so true, only forgiveness and grace is given to His children through Christ, that teaches us to say no to ungodliness, there is no regret that keeps us down. There is only grace that lifts us up.
3)    Worldly sorrow, which is our own sorrow and guilt, or others guilt and shame Satan uses, it brings death, no change within ourselves only regret, worry, anxiety, doubt, confusion, despair and hopelessness.
Worldly sorrow is what I lived through during my youth, teens, and twenty-nine years of my adult life. I know what worldly sorrow is and how it can deceive many into self-piety or their own righteousness that can never save them.
4)    Godly sorrow through His Spirit produces in us the earnestness or carefulness of the Spirit of Jesus. We are careful to make sure we are following His word through His teachings and not the teachings of man or of this world. This is produced, or wrought (accomplished) in us through His Spirit.
5)    Godly sorrow through His Spirit produces in us a eagerness to clear ourselves if we have offended God, we are not to prideful in speaking His truth if we have offended Him, or if we have not we are eager to prove we are His children and no longer are conformed to this world.
6)    Both KJV and NIV say indignation is produced by the Godly sorrow through His Spirit. This is a righteous anger that arouses within the child of God because of something unjustly has been committed against them or against someone else. This is not an uncontrollable anger, but one that speaks passion and truth for the benefit of all. Jesus experienced this type of anger from the Spirit of God many times when rebuking His disciples, the Pharisee's, the Roman government, and with the people of his home town.
7)    Godly sorrow through His Spirit also produces fear, or alarm within a child of God. This is a fear of displeasing God, and it is like an alarm going off in one’s heart they need to answer quickly. Jesus experienced this briefly in Gethsemane in a way none of us can understand, fearful of taking on all the sins of the world, and he was refreshed quickly by angles of God through his prayer, and was able to continue as God's Holy Son taking on all the sins of man upon himself. We also will be refreshed by unseen angels of God through His given Spirit when we face any fear through our prayers.
8)    Godly sorrow also produces a longing, or vehement which is a great force of energy to be right with your Father above all others and things in this world. This is the consuming force of his love that takes a person past themselves, others and things this earth is consumed by.
9)    Godly sorrow also produces through His Spirit a passion for God's judgement to be carried out above all things and people in this world so they can be ready to complete God’s work in them and through them. They are deeply passionate about seeing His judgment carried out any way God has arranged for the building up of His kingdom that takes them beyond themselves and this world.
Those who have fully surrendered to God, as God says through Paul, all of these behaviors, longings, and desires will be manifested in them through His Spirit given them Godly sorrow as they were mainfestied in these church members in Corinth Paul wrote too.
Many “Christians” are teaching that God no longer produces this in a person, they claim He is kind and ignores our sins as if there were no Godly sorrow needed within us anymore because God is “loving and kind” and does not produce any Godly sorrow in them. This is not true, without Godly sorrow there would be no conviction of sin against God that leads to repentance and is needed for our daily walk of salvation.We will never change without Godly sorrow, and without the Cross we cannot receive Jesus through the Godly sorrow and repentance Jesus gives us that keeps us denying ourselves and carrying the cross He gives us daily through His Spirit of truth.

Many people do not receive God's truth about His sorrow being a part of His love for us that grants us repentance, and a changed life to live for Him and His New Kingdom.
If you are living through your own feelings of sorrow, and you want to receive His repentance that truly gives you Godly sorrow so you can change by His power and grace, ask Him today, speak to Him as a humble child. If you are not hearing God’s voice daily, and only living by your feelings ask Him to help you receive Godly sorrow so you can truly repent and change through His convictions that work in and through you daily as He speaks personally to you everyday as your relationship with Him develops. 

Tell Him you want to hear His voice speaking to you, and not only go by your natural "feelings" but hear His voice of convictions, and you may hear Him like you never have before!

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