WHAT IS YOUR DAILY BREAD?
I was eating lunch at the hospital Tuesday of this week in the court yard. It was such a beautiful day, the sun was shinning with puffy white clouds against the brilliant blue of the sky showing through the mirror windows on the side of the hospital. It looked like a building size painting God had sent me. I was just sitting their reading my bible and couldn't help but thank Him for this opportunity to be able to do this out side on such a beautiful day. I thanked him for giving me the desire to want to read by Bible. While I was thanking Him and filling so full of His presence I could not help but over hear three women that was sitting two tables across from me. They had a very pleasant laugh and beautiful smiles. They were having a great time together sharing their conversation with each other. I could not help hearing what they were talking about, we were the only people in the court yard. They were talking about what gives them pleasure and how they cope with their daily problems they face. I began to realize God wanted me to hear this and learn something He was teaching me from it and share it with others. One of the women talked about how she loved couponing. She talked about how she didn't do it to save money but she did it because it consumed her. She would get into a concentrating, focused moment where it would over come her thoughts about her problems. She would be only thinking about what she was doing, couponing. She had become so organized and detailed, storing up products in a small room, she was beginning to out grow, couponing had comsumed her life. It took over all of her spare time and she liked it, she was addicted. It had taken over her life, she didn't have to think of her family problems as long as she was couponing. Now we all know as soon as she was finished her problems would still be there, wanting her to face them. She would want to do it more and more. Couponing had become her daily bread. The other woman was talking about how cleaning helped her get away and not face her problems. She could clean for hours, sometimes at night when she couldn't sleep and everyone else was in bed a sleep in another part of the house. She would be accomplishing a lot by a clean house and still not have to face her problems while she was doing it. She was very proud of herself for this therapy she had created for herself. We also know her problems were still there after she was done. She began wanting to do it more and more. Cleaning had become her daily bread. The other woman talked about her great desire to dive into a romance novel. She could read for hours about someone elses problems and live through their life and not have to face her life for hours and hours. Again, we know her problems were still there after she would read. She began reading more and more. Reading fiction romance novels had turned into her daily bread. This conversation was very interesting to me. I realized I use to have something I did when I would feel overwhelmed with problems. I would watch T.V. and clean. I could watch T.V. for a whole day, watching movie after movie. I also cleaned my house when I wanted to escape the world and all the problems I had to face. It was not a solution but it would help me cover things up until they re-serviced again and again. That was my life; work, clean, take care of my family, watch T.V. go to church every now and then, over and over and over and over.! The more problems I had the more cleaning and watching T.V. I did. Watching T.V. and cleaning became my daily bread.
While I was sitting there thinking about all God was trying to teach me I began to get tears in my eyes, thinking to myself how far He had brought me and how many women did not know how far He could bring them. I know watching T.V., couponing, reading romance novels are not sins, but if you let them consume you and take over your life, they are. If you are one of these women like I was for many years, turn to our savior Jesus Christ, let him be your daily bread. If you accept Him as your savior He will save you. Your time will be spent in a more complete way, the way you were created to spend your time. Let Him plan your day and your hours. God does not give you a overcoming life that has no problems but He does give you everything you need to overcome them. The more you read his word, worship his presence or pray for His guidance in your life and others He will reveal a part of you that has been hidden; His overcoming Spirit! You will be a more glorious person, filled with all of His gifts just for you.The one our Heavenly Father created before time began. Without knowing Jesus, you will never know your true self. I pray this for all women,men and children. I hope this story opened your eyes and heart a little more to receive his presence within each one of us. Many prayers, Vicki Gann