My Lord has given me so much through blessings, but that is not as important to me as what he has given me through relationships by the Holy Spirit. Because through each relationship I know He is either teaching me something or helping me "unlearn" something. He is always taking away more than He is putting in because He has already given us all we need when He died for us on the cross, it is up to us to receive it. I thank Him everyday for showing me what I need to "unlearn" so I can learn more of who I am. We all NEED him, we do not have to have him, he is not going to force anything on us, but we all NEED him to become who we were meant to be. If you are someone like I use to be that always worried, always complained about my life and the cards I was delt. Most of the cards I dealt to myself! Always tired of fighting within myself. Always blaming someone else for making me feel the way I was feeling at the time. Not really sleeping restfully most nights. Using my humor to cover up many insecurities I had about myself. Using humor to talk about people, cutting them down through humor or making a joke of their insecurities so I would feel better about my own. It was funny, it made people laugh, so I didn't think it hurt anyone. Not realizing it was hurting me more than anyone else. I even used my religion to cover up my insecurities. I used working for the Lord to cover up all I was not. I thought helping people and being a servant for the Lord might make me feel better about myself enough that I would be who He wanted me to be, and others would see that I was being an obedient servant, and say good things about me. I just got tired, never really changing, and did not understand at the time what my Lord wanted out of me. Finally after I had been tossed back and forth most of my life from one idea to another trying to find out who I truly was, never receiving peace always searching for that completeness some of us do not know truly exists; I found it! I now being the best we can be is never going to be good enough, it is only Jesus Christ that can give us that completeness. I can not tell you how many times I have heard people say, "I am doing the best I can". I was one of those people, saying it over and over again. I bought cards that said it, and believe me, there are a lot of cards that say it! I know now our best of all best is not close to what Jesus makes us to be! Jesus was asked in John 6 v 28 "What must we do to do the works God requires?29 Jesus answered, "The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent." That means all we have to do is believe in Jesus Christ and why he was sent. It sounds easy but when you learn who He is through the word, (the Bible God so graciously gave us to learn more about Him) it gets more complicated and most people give up and don't realize that we are given His Spirit to guide us and help us learn about him. Without the Spirit of God everything in this life is meaningless. I know, it sounds like I am making myself more important than others that do not have the Spirit. If you have the Spirit then you will understand what I am talking about. If you don't, it is going to sound like I am making myself more important than anyone else. I am no different than anyone else, I was probably a bigger sinner than most. This is why I needed Him more. There are so many people going their own way today, interpreting the Bible the way they claim is the right way to suit their life style or their religion. Scripture says that it would be like this, I suppose it has always been like this. If you do your own research of the church you will find out for yourself. We now are going in all kinds of directions with all kinds of denominations. I only can speak for myself and I do believe I am speaking for my Lord also because by the Grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. He wants us to be in unity encouraging each other through the power He has available for all of us. There is one body and one Spirit, everyone has a chance to be called to the same one hope, the same one Lord, the same one faith, the same one baptism, the same one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. We do not keep the unity that God wants us to keep, we are too busy being "religious" and not focusing on the One God through Jesus Christ. We are focusing on other motives,other idols and ourselves. I lived most of my life without Him being my Lord and savior, now I am taking the place of the women that told me this several years ago. I challenge you to get to know who he is through the Bible and when the Holy Spirit brings the word and Him together and you receive the Holy Spirit than you will truly begin to know who you truly are and you can quit being who you are not. He will mold you like clay and smash you like grapes to create His pottery design and His poured out wine. Don't give up, the molding and the smashing of the grapes are going to be hard, depending on how much you need him. I needed and desired all of Him and it was very hard for me. The hardest thing I have ever done and ever will do. I went through a lot of suffering and Godly sorrow that led me to knowing my Lord and Savior. What I gained will always be more than I suffered and deserved. It is an awakening within myself that is indescribable! I am receiving more and more of Him everyday! I will always try not to turn down or miss an opportunity He gives me to learn more about Him. When your spirit becomes His Spirit you will see things through his eyes, mind and soul, you will be complete to live the life He intended you to live, for Him. Remember His life for you is what He created you for not the life you create for yourself. Always keep Him close through the Spirit and His Word, if you have been given the Spirit, you will know when He is troubled. He is bigger than anything you are suffering through. If you are someone that worries read your Bible, if you are someone that has no hope, read your Bible. If you are someone that can't sleep for any reason, read your Bible. If you are someone that suffers physically or mentally, read your Bible. We have been given this life to praise Him and if you are not praising him in it, read your Bible. If you are someone you know you are not suppose to be, read your Bible.Give your cares to God because he cares for you. When he cares for you He cares so much better than we do!!! Read your Bible until you understand it or until you crave it, which ever comes first. I am telling you this because I love you more than you could impossibly understand, unless you too love him and know him as I do and then you will know how much I love you!
Scripture - 1 Corinthians 15 v 10 - Ephesians 4 - Psalm 55 v 22 - 1Peter 5v7- Hebrews 2v10
Philippians 3 v 8-11
Many prayers always,